Kitty Fanatic

I can’t believe it’s less than three weeks until the wedding! I’m starting to get really nervous and I’m having trouble sleeping. On Friday I had my bachelorette party and it was so much fun. My sisters came and also had invited a couple of my friends and we ordered pizza and then went to the bowling alley for some drinks. It was a blast.

And yesterday my sisters threw me a bridal shower and it was fun too. It was great seeing everyone and I got some really nice gifts I have no idea where I’m going to put everything.

The past few weeks have been a bit stressful since it was midterm and I failed one of my exams, but hopefully I’ll be able to bring up my grade before the end of the semester. Next week is spring break and I’m so looking forward to it. I have a lot of things planned like moving the rest of my stuff to Joe’s house and making sure I have everything ready for the wedding. The week before the wedding I have school but I’m going to take the Friday before off so I’ll have to make up two exams. There’s no way I want to take any exams the day before the wedding, I’ll be stressed enough as it is.

It’s now 7 weeks until my wedding! I can’t believe it’s getting so close! This weekend we went to buy our wedding rings and I left my engagement ring with the jeweler so they can solder my rings together and they’ll be ready for the wedding. So my hand feels naked not having a ring on my finger, but I’m glad I’ll have both of my rings all done so I won’t have to worry about it before or after the wedding.

We’re starting to make plans for our honeymoon which we will be taking in June. We’ve decided we’re going to Maui and I’m really excited because I’ve never been to Hawaii and I think it will be very romantic and a lot of fun. We’re taking a late honeymoon because I have school and Joe will be getting started with planting toward the end of April, so we figured it would be best to take a honeymoon this summer instead of right after our wedding.

School is also going pretty well, I’ve been extremely busy but I think my grades will be really good this semester. A few weeks ago we went to Des Moines to meet with Iowa legislators to promote policies that we feel strongly about. It was a great experience and I felt confident speaking with the legislators and I think it was really good for me.

Also, today was my last day of work and I’m so relieved. Now I can focus on school and the wedding and not have to worry about working at all.

I am feeling better today, thankfully. I’ve had some pain and I’m feeling very tired and weak, but the nausea is gone and hopefully with this new antibiotic I will start feeling better soon.

This morning I gave my final presentation and took two final exams. They were very hard, but I’m glad to be done with them. Just have one final to take tomorrow and I’ll be done! It’s such a relief to be at the end of the semester and have a break from school. In January I start my first field placement so I’m a bit nervous about it, but hopefully the three weeks will go fast.

This past week has been awful. I went to the doctor Friday afternoon after discovering a painful lump, and apparently I have a serious bacterial infection of some sort. She put me on antibiotics and told me to get some rest, and I was miserable all weekend. I called back yesterday because the lump was getting bigger and went in again today and was put on a different antibiotic and have to go back next week. It really sucks because I’ve been feeling extremely tired and weak, and couldn’t keep anything down yesterday, so now I barely have a voice and tomorrow I have to give my final presentation and take two other finals. This shit is really kicking my ass, I have no energy whatsoever.

Thanksgiving was nice, my fiance and I cooked a turkey dinner at the farm and his mom, sister & brother-in-law, and my sister and her husband came. It was a nice, small gathering and later that day we also went to my fiance’s aunt & uncle’s house for dinner. Needless to say, I was stuffed.

I also had to work yesterday and today, and I have to work tomorrow again. I made a list of all of the papers that I need to get done, and so far I have five left to finish for this week and I honestly don’t know how I’m going to get them all done. One of them is due Monday so I’ve been trying to motivate myself to work on it, but I’m honestly so tired right now I can’t even think straight. I keep telling myself that there’s only three weeks left of the semester but it seems like it’s never going to end.

Wow, I don’t even know how long it’s been since I’ve posted here. When I started this blog, I wanted to post as much as I could to have somewhere to vent, but it seems like everything else has taken over and I don’t have time for anything anymore. A couple of weeks ago I decided to ask for my job back so I could earn a bit of money. So I’ve been attempting to balance work, school, volunteer work, and homework….but it’s really stressful. Honestly at this point, I’m feeling burned out. But I just keep telling myself that the semester is almost over and then I’ll have two weeks away from school.

As of this moment, I still have eight papers and two presentations to do before the end of the semester. One of the presentations is tomorrow so I’ve been busy getting everything ready. So I have a lot to do, plus next week is Thanksgiving and I’m cooking dinner for the in-laws and have to work the rest of that weekend. I honestly wish there were more hours in the day, there just doesn’t seem to be enough.

Anyway, my little kitty Max has been doing really well. Actually, he’s not my kitty anymore because on Tuesday I took him to my sister’s because she really wanted him so he’s adjusting to his new home and things are back to normal again with my three cats. I’m still only going to have two cats when I get married and move because my parents are going to take one of them.

So, I guess I need to get back to preparing for my presentation. I still have to finish all of my note cards and get to bed. So until then…

I have been so busy lately, I guess that’s going to be the story of my life for the next several years. I started my volunteer work at the middle school after school program and I love it. It’s fun to work with kids and find out what they’re learning in school and help them with whatever they need. Tomorrow I start my volunteer work at the nursing home and I’m a bit nervous because it’s so new to me, but I’m sure it will be fine.

This semester is so chaotic because of all the events I have to attend and between that, the volunteer work, classes, and homework, I don’t have much time for anything else. I’m also in the process of applying for a field observation in January, so I’m hoping to have everything set up for that within the next month or so. I have to do one field observation this year which is 120 hours, and in the spring of 2013 I’ll do 480 hours and they have to be two separate populations. So since I want to eventually work with adolescents, I’ll save that for the 480 hours and for this January I’ll do something else.

So far, I’m loving all of my classes. Everything that we’re learning is so interesting and I actually look forward to doing the homework and going to class. We have a lot of papers and presentations to do this semester and I know it’s going to be a lot of work, but I’m just looking forward to getting my degree and getting out in the field and working with people.

Today I had to miss both of my classes to attend my cousin’s funeral this morning. It was a sad service, he was 43 and died unexpectedly last weekend. I didn’t know him very well, but he was married to my best friend for about a year before they divorced. I really hate funerals, it’s just so sad that one minute a person is there and the next minute they’re gone.

Also, this afternoon, one of the kittens I rescued passed away. I had taken her to vet yesterday morning and she was put on antibiotics but I guess it was too late. I couldn’t get her to eat at all yesterday and last night I had this feeling that she wasn’t going to make it. I was holding her and she was so weak, she just laid her head on my chest and closed her eyes, and I could hear her breathing get a little fast at times and I cuddled with her as much as I could to give her love. This morning I called the vet’s office but they were really busy and the secretary didn’t get a chance to talk to the vet until this afternoon. But this afternoon when I was holding her I knew she was going to die because her body started to feel cold and her eyes were glazed over. When I talked to the vet’s office this afternoon I told them that I thought she was dying and by the time they called me back Angel was gone. Part of me feels like it was my fault, that I could have done more to save her. I should have taken her to a different vet first thing this morning, but I had the funeral to attend, so I didn’t know what to do. She was so little and I wish I could have done more, but I couldn’t save her.